I’ve got this fancy winter coat It protects me from the snow When the cold wind blows I barely feel it though I love my coat so much I decided to to keep it on Now I see I went wrong Because I am a bit too hot Sweating and wasting away Beneath this heavy
This year I’ve been spending a lot of time doing inner work. I’ve been digging into my past and learning new ways of being with the help of a therapist, church, and many books in the spiritual/growth/self-help/psychology genres. I’ve been working to cultivate awareness through yoga and meditation. I’ve been listening to uplifting music and
It’s interesting how people can be so close and over time become strangers. Whether it’s because feelings get hurt and do not heal in time for the relationship to mend or the lack of putting effort into the relationship, it never feels great when you run into that person and realize how awkward it now
The human condition It is not conditional We all get handed our own Challenges with which we have to deal The only difference between us Is whether we choose to heal Or stay stuck in the muck That is what makes or breaks you There is no such thing as luck So choose to wallow
I’m not transgender, but I can relateI know how it feels to carry a weightOut of alignment, and feeling the hateQuestioning my sanity, is it me or the world?Even if it isn’t a matter of being boy or girl…I can only imagine the courage it takesMy burden seems light when I consider the stakesOf continuing
Is it me who is crazy?On the daily these people insist on making a messCommunication fails to flow causing distressMaking things difficult, this place is a cultOf people who think they knowBut have no idea how to growFailing to put procedures in placeMany a client they don’t fail to disgraceInternal warfare, it’s me against youBlame
How do I read the signs in my body? There’s pain in my head and my brain is all foggy Knowing that my mind contributes to health Is insanity at work worth the wealth? Feeling the pain of everyday stress Trying to let it go…Decompress Long for the weekend That goes by too quick This
Like a wave, we rise and we fall… Some days it feels like we’re on top of it all We scale the great heights As though we’ve mastered life Then other times we feel as though we’ve missed the call… Missing the purpose… feeling things stall Like the wave, the peak never lasts Like the
Layden with stressorsthe world an oppressorseeking to steal joy at every turn Capitalism in full swingWork til retiringWhen will we ever learn Keep up the grindDon’t get left behindThe cogs continue to churn It’s all about moneyJust suck it up honeyKeep on and continue to earn To do what you loveYou must rise aboveand learn
Nothing here is permanent so why do we even careNothing here stays, it just dissipates into thin airI place importance on finding a directionBut what if it isn’t mine to findRunning the good old rat race while unraveling my own mindSeeking and searching for my purposeStriving for that meaning and surplusBut what if there isn’t
Usually, when I write, I come from an uplifted place of inspiration, but today I find myself struggling to find my bliss. I dropped my daughter off at school this morning and had to intentionally start saying all of the small things I was grateful for. I started recounting the many things, our health, our
As I’ve been embarking on this spiritual journey of mine, I’ve begun to take more notice of nature in an attempt to better understand God and his plans for us. I’ve always felt that while we humans are extremely complicated and often think ourselves “advanced,” there is a calm peace in nature that we often overlook and
I am a huge fan of children’s movies as I feel they have deeper messages than most adult films. As a child, I recall watching all of the classics over and over again. Now as an adult, watching some of the same movies with my own daughter, I am realizing how deep some of these
There is a little girl upstairsI ask, “can she come out to play?”“No, no, not today. Maybe some other time? There’s work to be done before time gets away.There is money to be made and others who need aid. The time is just not right… I’m afraid.” “Ok… maybe another day, I say…”As I busy myself with menial
Do I like what I seeWhen there’s nobody, but meAlone… do I feel happy?Am I in good company?Am I living my bestOr just taking too much restMaybe I’m obsessedWith passing this test Wonder if I am headedIn the right directionWalking this pathOf resurrection Focused on livingIn the lightWhen doubt creeps inI’m trying to fight To
Oddly enough as I was reading “Man’s Search for Meaning” by Viktor Frankl, I began to question my faith a bit. As much as I hated to admit it, I was a bit shaken by the cruelty and despair that those in Auschwitz endured. The human ugliness caught me a bit unaware as I have
So often in life we think we know exactly what we want, how things should go, where we want to be, how we’re going to get there, and who we must be to succeed. However, tonight as I was laying with my daughter, I realized that the best pieces of my life are pieces that
How is it that sometimes when you intend to help someone, you wind up hurting them? I’m asking this question this morning in light of an experience where I meant well in my honesty with a close relative of mine, but it somehow ended in my dining alone. As I sat alone at the table,
I think I finally understand how to live and it’s a matter of unraveling some of the stuff I’ve carried to this point in pursuit of what God has in store for me. I’d like to compare this process of life to a mummy. Yes, a mummy. Stay with me. We begin life with this
Does anyone really have it “figured out”? As I am going to therapy, soul searching, reading the bible, listening to Oprah’s soul sessions… I’m realizing that there is no such thing as having it all “figured out.” This is hard to take because I’ve always striven for the right answers. As an analytical spirit, I
Is there such a thing as everlasting happiness or is it something that people chase incessantly throughout life? Is that the joy of life… to steadily pursue the next joy. I used to think that happiness could be attained, but now I wonder if maybe happiness is ever elusive, something that is caught in moments
3 years ago, my fiancé and I went on a “hard” hike. At the time we didn’t realize the rating of the trail we decided to undertake but took the suggestion of our waiter who was from the area to do a loop trail in NH. We thought it sounded nice, given that we wouldn’t
We humans have a way of imprisoning what was always meant to be free. As I rested in savasana at the end of this morning’s yoga class, I tuned into the birds singing their glorious song outside. It was as though they were telling me the secret to life. Freedom is what the lyrics to
You give yourself away too easily When you don’t yet know who you areor what love is meant to be Searching for something and you don’t even know itIf they can do it, so can you, you just have to own it Who’s using who? A competition for powerIt feels good in the moment, but what
Yoga is about trusting the being within you to support you through the balancing poses. The more I focus, the wobblier I am. It is when I trust my being that I succeed in balance. When I trust in God, suddenly life is balanced, and I feel freedom while exerting much less effort than I
Our children certainly have a way of bringing out the best… and the worst in us. From warm hugs to the temper tantrums, there is nothing else in life that forces us to stretch who we are in such significant ways. While often we think we are the ones guiding them and helping them grow,
It’s interesting how much the mind and emotions fluctuate from day to day. I’ve been on this journey to improve myself with God for some time now. Some days I feel entirely optimistic as though God is working miracles within my soul. Other days, such as today, I feel somewhat uninspired. On my down days, I often
Why do we have free will? Initially in my search for answers, I resented the idea of free will. I would make mistakes and beat myself up for being less perfect than I thought I “should” be. I would do things in the moment and regret them almost instantaneously. I would spew hatred in fits
I am honored to have the same initials as Jesus Christ. As I sit and consider the depths of what Jesus Christ represents to me, I am overwhelmed. When I read the Bible and begin to understand the love story it truly is between God and humanity it inspires me to reach my full potential.
We’re amazingly intelligent beings. We can envision, design and build sky scrapers. We’ve created mechanisms to transport us from one location to another anywhere in the world. We can take people apart and put them back together so that they function once again. We can launch humans into space or deep under the sea. However,