Being home with my family lately has me caught
Up in temptation I need an escape.
This part of me wants to get twisted
How much can I take?
Used sex like vacation once upon a time
Right about now I can understand why
Being stuck with my child it has me upset
Ungrateful, a brat, and I just do not get
How many times she has to hear “no”
In order to respond without screaming and yelling… a fit she does throw.
A spoiled American… entitled asshole
Is who she is whenever I say “No”
When you have it all, you can’t see clearly
Everything is about me, me, me, me
I don’t want to live my life in the toxicity
Unless of course, she is getting what she desires
Only then she’s someone I can admire
Feed the demon and all is well
The minute you stop then it’s proverbial hell
Breaking loose on the household and everything around
Makes me want to run straight out of town
I hear the demon in my mind yell “You don’t need this.. get out, have a drink, you are stressed, just sleep around.
Do something selfish for you and just you.
Blow off some steam, just release… but it’s the wrong thing to do.
Fighting to stay committed to this child and partner
Doing what I can to fulfill my dharma.