I’m not sure if it’s the current climate that has me a bit down today. I’m struggling to find the motivation to write at the moment. Yet, I’ve committed and so here I am attempting to follow through even though I feel somewhat uninspired. I’m hopeful that as my fingers hit the keys the divine will come through and turn this rambling into hidden treasure, but even if that doesn’t happen I will honor the promise I made to myself. What is this promise, you ask? I promised myself that I would stay the course on work4progress.com even if things got hard… even if the newness began to fade. For me, this means writing and maintaining focus on days like today because as the old saying goes, “A wheel in motion stays in motion.”
Could I make an excuse and say, “Well it’s only one day and I just don’t really have it in me today?” I could and in the past I have, but I’m working for progress in this area. Primarily, I’m working for progress in the area of keeping commitments to myself in order to build trust within myself. Often, we are quick to let ourselves down when life gets a bit busier, stressful, or dull. When the feelings fade and the commitment no longer has that new luster to it, we lose interest. Or maybe that’s just me. Throughout my life, I’ve found that I tend to really enjoy the newness of things and then as time goes on I struggle to stay engaged. Most likely, this is a 1st world problem. “Shiny ball” syndrome I’ve heard it termed before.
Those of you who know me personally may not realize this, but commitment does not come easily for me. Its something I struggle with and often I find myself at a lull where I have to sit with my desire to move onto the next new thing and remind myself why it is best to stay committed. I’ve learned growth doesn’t come from chasing the next “new” endeavor, person, place, thing, but rather comes from persistence and commitment. When we move on quickly to the next, we never really have to look at ourselves and identify where the urge is coming from. We never have to assess whether it’s fear of failure or lack of interest that has us wanting to jump ship and start charting a new course. It’s the easier route when we fool ourselves into believing, “We’re just not that into it, him, her.” However, it’s also the more costly route.
When we constantly jump from ship to ship we miss out on the development our souls long for. We miss the opportunity to know ourselves more deeply and challenge our fears. We forfeit the right to the end of the story. We don’t get to see where the commitment may have taken us, what doors it may have opened, where the path ultimately would have led. I’m not sitting here saying that there are never instances where it is time to end a commitment, only that you may want to assess whether you have a list of unfinished business from your past… like that time you wanted to be a real estate agent, a veterinarian, a psychologist, a dancer, and somehow you aren’t any of those things. Again… maybe that’s just me.
What I’m getting at is sometimes lack of dedication and focus is a pattern and it’s worth looking at. In fact anytime you see a pattern at work within your life it’s worth taking the time to examine it further. It is said that we often repeat the same lessons until they’ve been fully understood and integrated into ones life. The patterns you are repeating may just be a divine lesson waiting for you to assimilate. What lessons are waiting to be acknowledged in your life?