As I engage in self-study, I see when my ego is about to roar and am better able to take a pause before I say or do something that won’t lead to the highest good… mine or anybody else’s. Today, while on a conference call, I felt my annoyance growing with a colleague of mine […]
Why do we complain incessantly about the same things rather than take the initiative to fix them? I just finished reading “Year of Yes” by Shonda Rhimes, so it may be why my partner’s complaints about the same old things are really grating on my nerves. I’m trying to start living my own life in
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Perfectionism, the beast that refuses to die within me. It’s the sneaky one who takes me out when I least expect it and hits me with the sucker punch more often than I’d like to admit. It’s the demon that I can never seem to spot right away. Most times it’s dragging me into its
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Truth… Satya, as it is called in the Yamas. Today’s reading during the close of yoga practice really hit home for me. The reading described how not living in our truth saps the life out of us. It’s as though God says, “Well, since you aren’t doing what I created you to do… I guess
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Play… that’s the word that came to mind the other day during my yoga asana practice. In the midst of savasana, my wandering mind suddenly started pondering how yoga invites us to play with contraction and extension, tension and relaxation, strength and flexibility, comfort and discomfort. Life also is constantly knocking at our door asking
Addiction is insidious. It creeps in without being seen and takes hold of one’s mind under the guise of normalcy. It pretends that it belongs there because, “other people do it,” “it’s no big deal”, “it isn’t really affecting my life.” Yet, when we attempt to stop, we realize how big of a hold it
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We are very interesting creatures. As I grow in my spirituality and more deeply into myself I’m coming to understand this journey more each day. Yesterday, I stumbled. I acted reactively when confronted with a frustrating situation. Traffic was at a standstill on the highway I was attempting to merge onto and this man a
Tonight, I went to a birthday party for a girl at my daughter’s school. I have to admit I was feeling a little stressed out with the thought of going. I’d ordered her gift on Amazon and it didn’t come in on time. Delivery stated that it would be in at any point through 9pm
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It’s frustrating when someone says they will do something and then they don’t. This one thing cuts through me like a knife. If you want to irritate me, tell me you are going to do something and then fail to do it. I think I’m a pretty easy person to live with. I don’t ask
The end of a 30 year marriage doesn’t just happen in a split second. It happens slowly day by day and year by year due to lack of compassion, understanding, and love. For example, when one partner chooses to work weekends while the other partner craves quality time and prioritizes family above all else it
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It’s interesting how judgment can lead to such insidious behavior in people. Recently, I’d had an experience where I was severely misjudged. An extremely off base attack was made on my parenting, which could have resulted in a violent situation if I were a different person than I am today. I am so grateful for
Religion… the gateway to hell or a pathway to something deeper and more profound? I was just listening to Lauren Daigle’s song “Losing my Religion” which prompted me to ponder this point. Religion has brought about a lot of ugliness and division in this world, yet I feel religion is trying to point us in
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“Practice” is what we call our inner work and the movement through the asanas when on the mat. Has anyone ever questioned what we are practicing for or what practice actually means? Many that show up for yoga practice often don’t realize that not only are they practicing in the verb tense, but that they
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I’ve just completed my first weekend of the long anticipated 200 hour yoga teacher training and it was full of emotions. As someone who is very self-aware, I realized several things over the course of this weekend. I noticed how expectation of my own performance and capability consistently has a negative impact within my life.
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I’ve just started my yoga teacher training as another means to teach what it means to be heart centered and live from the inside out. My passion is God and this passion leads me to seek ways to help others realize who they are so that they can bring everything that they have to offer
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It’s easy to stay peaceful and calm when life is going smoothly, but the challenge is to maintain positivity when life starts to pick up the pace. When we have multiple things screaming for our attention and we start getting pulled in all directions is when we need to remember that we have trained for
Today I took part in an interesting conversation and I’m sure it’s one that many have been having in these times. I listened to 2 of my colleagues discuss video games like diner dash, candy crush, Farmville, paint by number, etc. I listen to them speak of the anxiety that these games caused them and
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Today, my yoga instructor called my attention to the fact that when we practice yoga, we practice many of the same asanas (poses) repeatedly. I don’t know why this never really struck me before given that the definition of practice includes the words “repeatedly” and “habitually.” Just like yoga, life is often about the repetition
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What if we’re “Satan”? Satan is cunning, selfish and always out for his own best interest. He constantly lies and persuades humanity to make destructive choices. In the Bible, he was cast down by God for selfishness and attempting to usurp God (Isaiah 14:12-15). After reading the Bible, I believe our ego is Satan. It’s
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Emptiness. So often when many of us think of emptiness, it brings up feelings of despair, sadness, boredom, and frustration. I’ve been this way for a long time, frustrated by the idea of not knowing what I was meant to do with my life. I often felt as though there was something that I was
“Look deep into nature, and then you will understand everything better.” – Albert Einstein I wrote a piece awhile back called “Trees Teach.” As I was laying in bed this morning, listening to the birds chirping outside and the sound of the breeze blowing through the leaves, the large tree outside of my window spoke
If you want to know the meaning of resilience, take your child to a roller-skating rink and watch all of the young kids who are just learning to skate. My daughter and I went today. She is a beginner, having only been once last year. It was beautiful to watch the evolution from the time
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I love my yoga studio, but I do not love the parking lot. It’s in the middle of the city, so it is a blessing that they even have parking, but their lot is tight. One car packs in behind another and it’s a challenge to get out because one wrong move and you either
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This morning on my way to drop my daughter off at school, she requested that we listen to our “Happy Melodies” playlist on my Spotify account. It’s a bunch of silly songs that make me laugh or remind me of my happier childhood memories. These songs can brighten up even my worse day because they
This morning while eating breakfast, my 6-year-old daughter proceeded to tell me that she “accidentally touched another little girl’s vagina at school yesterday.” I stopped chewing and found myself in a bit of uneasiness. I asked in a matter-of-fact tone, “What do you mean you touched her vagina on accident?” She then told me that
I don’t enjoy my child… especially in the evening when she’s been with me all day like a cling on and then wants more from me. Children are draining, I’m convinced that they continue to suck your life force from you until they are adults. It isn’t just during the nursing time frame, but well
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It’s funny how perspective shifts throughout your life. Recently, my fiancé and I played hookie from work and went to Six Flags for the day. It had been years since we’d gone and in an effort to be spontaneous and do something different and exciting we decided to take an hour and a half ride
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Is the self-help industry really helping anyone? I finally wake up and ask myself. It’s an industry fueled by the perceived void that exists within humanity as a whole. Those of us who have taken an interest in becoming the best possible versions of ourselves are well versed with many of the materials and groups
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My daughter has been obsessed with this pea plant that she planted at school. Since she’s brought it home she has been consistently asking me to water it everyday and I keep explaining to her that it doesn’t need as much water as she wants to give it because it will drown if we water
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My child is great! However, she drains the life out of me sometimes and I find myself being really irritated by her incessant persistence to get more. It’s always… 2 more minutes… 5 more minutes… of whatever it is she is doing. She just can’t accept that her original timeline is over even though we
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